I and a few years Chi Red

 Fourth grade the first contact, Who is? When the novel to read.
later, experienced the greatest pain in life, I do not know how to face and had to escape and hide in the book. At this time, the Red House and came to my side. This Once I see is the emptiness of life and the ethereal, the fate of the ruthless and tease, human well-being and the inconstancy of human relationships. Yihong Gong child is not able to get rid of the final fate, had become a monk over. do not know how to describe his feelings at the time , like non-hi-hi, like worry not worry, just a ray of light burst of sorrow and empty relieved.
since then, learned to give up, learn to accept. understood their just an ordinary mortal after all, a lot of things they can not be changed. the face of these powerless can do yourself, but accepts it. like so many years of knot, after all, so they can not, ah, I can do?! I can only accept ah, but accept the later? I still untied the knot, ah, glad that at least I can face on tight.
and later university, and access to the book more, and finally have the opportunity to read the many versions of the Red Chamber. Gengchen Ben, way high in this, the Writer, abnormal Wat Minds, photocopies of 75 years, a variety of illustrated edition, Wang Meng, who's next to the batch version of the various self-cleaning has continued this, and all non-Hong Xuejia Hong Xuejia and Red's comments on books, bluntly said, I have seen more than nine out of ten of them.
However, I still can not get rid of the Red first impression: a clove like women, hand-held hoe, the body carrying the book, then sat quietly on the stone, Qieqie, even the wind can not bear to abrupt, quietly take a detour out.